(Not) Words of Wisdom

p.s. i love this song! And now it’s summertime, i think it’s a good time to sing this song again and again.. yippeeeyy!!! Read the rest of this entry »

i was sleep deprived today. To make matters worse, i was having a rather long day. As usual, my first case was at 8 to 11:30 in the morning. So i was up and ready to go by 7:30am. Oh, today the visit was extended for an hour so by the time i finished dropping off those kids it was already 1 pm. My next visit was 3:30-8pm.. urgh! So i had just enough time to come home, had lunch, and watched an episode of Monk before i have to leave at 2:55pm. Gosh… sometimes gwe sebel ma kerjaan gwe… Saking ngantuknya tadi pas pagi, gwe tidur di sofa klien gwe for about 2 hours. Taunya 2 jam? sbelom gwe bobo, anaknya masukin ice age dvd, pas gwe bangun filmnya dah kelar ahahahahaha! parah deeeh… tapi paperworknya keisi smua jadi shouldn’t be a problem.. wong ibunya juga tidur kok gwe lyat.

Anyway, jadi gitu deeh.. everyday i feel soooo deprived of sleep. i still have my bad habit to not fall asleep before the clock hits midnight even though i’ve changed my daytime schedule.. siiigh… it’s so weird.. i want someone to tell me to go to sleep!!! hahahaha

Biasa kalo lagi kancileun (bener gak siy nulisnya?) alias insomnia, gwe jadi pengen nyoret-nyoret di blog. Hari ini juga lagi males berbahasa Om Sam, jadi sorry for those people who can’t understand this post. Sebenernya gwe mikir juga, sebenernya ada gak siiy yang baca blog gwe?

Alasan 1: gwe jarang update blog. lt seems like l have an attention span of a 4 year old. i got bored easily.. sigh!

Alasan 2: blog ini juga gak ada specific focusnya.. semua nyampur2. Kalo blog orang laen kan ada yang cuma ngomongin travel, makanan, how-tos, recipes,  bahkan ada tentang kebenciannya pada hello kitty (oh, that’s a rather cute blog). Tapi kalo gwe smua numplek bleg disini.

Alasan 3: Blog ini dwibahasa. l was wondering if it matters. Tuuh contohnya, gwe binun ni blog mau pake bahasa apa yaa enaknya? Bahasa indonesia tertulis gwe kurang ok.. kalo bahasa inggris kadang gwe suka ilang ingatan for some words.. *kata ini bahasa inggrisnya apa yaa?* haduh!

Anyway, it’s almost 2:30 am and i’m still not sleepy. Besok bakal lumayan padet niiy. Case pagi gwe mulai jam 8, means gwe keluar rumah dari jam 7:35am paling telat. Trus biasanya kelar jam 11:30 tapi besok bakal diextend sampe jam 1230pm bwat nuker hari senin minggu lalu. Trus selese nganterin bocah2nya kira2 jam 1pm. Gwe ada case lagi jam 330 sampe jam 8 malem abis itu. Waduh! brarti gwe cuma bisa tidur siang kira2 sejam yak?

siigh.. sometimes i miss my jobless day… well, it was really boring but at least i make my own schedule.. it feels so liberating hahaha. Tapi tnyata jobless days gwe membawa gwe pada kebangkrutan… makanya skarang musti kerja… demi sesuap nasi dan semangkuk berlian… ciyeeeh! Jadi musti smangat kerjanya.. byar barokah… amiinn….!

This lonely feeling

i saw in the face

of a child with broken feeling.

That same hopeless feeling

i once faced

as my hopes went falling.

He was scared

his mummy almost got away

now he doesn’t wanna let her go.

I am still frightened

you left once,

did you really come back?

That child and I shared something

a paranoia of being left alone.

Now, are they really staying?

Monday was the first day of training for my new job. It started from 5pm til around 9pm. Honestly, it’s so-so. I have a weird feelings that the trainer(s) don’t really put hearts into it. The first speaker was super stingy for smiles and she had us taking turn to read lines after lines on the manuals aloud, noted just a couple of them, and said “you can read the rest on your own time”. What the? The second trainer was kinda better. She interacted pretty well with us. However, like the first one, she seemed to be in a hurry and rushing through stuff. It was definitely an info overload and I was so confused processing them, let alone asking questions. Well, maybe because it’s too late in the day, plus they had to work before our training start. I wonder why don’t they just do it in the morning or earlier in the day like 2pm maybe so that we don’t need to stay there til too late in the evening. Aaah, one day is down… four more to go!!! Read the rest of this entry »